This is a repost of something that I posted yesterday (about 24 hours ago) because I didn't really get any responses (I don't expect anyone to care about this poorly crafted post but I'm hoping someone has a bright idea)
Edit: Not really PC related, just internet in general. Sort of
I couldn't find a good subreddit to post this to, because it really isn't something that anyone wants to read. I decided that perhaps I'd get a reply or two on here, my favorite subreddit.
I'm 16. Okay, almost 16. In 2007 I first really went on the internet, and from then onwards, I played a game that I won't name (it was for kids) until... well, really until about 2012. I stopped 'playing' it in early 2009 but ran blogs about it and stayed in the Twitter community for that game until 2013.
I spent pretty much all of my time on topics related to that game, every second. I'd get home from school and post the latest updates (they were regular) or work on a site of mine... or just tweet for hours. I never even knew about the world of gaming until 2011 when I played Black Ops 1. I had previously played a few games like Vice City but I didn't really care for them.
I played COD and other games from 2012ish to late 2013, when I moved to PC. This is when I finally closed down whatever I had and left that community. I was way too old for it.
I don't know what I was doing earlier this year, I think I spent most of my time playing COD on PC, since it was such a new experience. (Not COD Ghosts, of course) But now, almost 2015. I don't know what to do, I'm thinking "Make a youtube channel." "Start a new site" "Dive deeper into programming"... none of these I can see working.
I'd love to make a YouTube channel but in no way am I comfortable behind a microphone. Literally, I wouldn't say a word behind my studio condenser microphone if you offered me $1000 to do so. It's not viable, despite knowing some people in the YouTube scene, some with hundreds of thousands of subscribers and others a bit smaller. I could make good quality videos in all aspects but speaking, which is basically the key part of YouTube. You can't make gaming videos without wanting to speak.
I'd love to make some new sites. I purchased a couple of domains recently for the first time in a while, but they're all too big of projects. I like blogging, that's where I've spent hundreds of hours, but I just don't have anywhere to go. I can't open up a new blog and type type type, I'd need to find a niche and one with an audience. I'm not interested in anything right now, or at least anything with an audience for blogs, just videos.
Programming is an interesting one. It's not really.. productive. I see it not as achieving anything but sort of... learning/expanding programming knowledge isn't like running a blog or a YouTube channel, it's the preparation for running a blog... or something. Obviously you don't need any knowledge to just run a Wordpress.org site but I think my point is understandable. Programming just isn't right for me now, I already fiddle around here and there but I'm leaving that for later education.
Games aren't my thing, I can't keep concentrated, I don't enjoy them. In fact, I look at playing games as work - I feel like I somehow achieved something by forcing myself to play games for 20 minutes.
I've never been at this point on the internet before (I'm on the internet every second I'm awake and not at education) where I'm not playing a franchise to its death (COD is the only game I really like because when you're good, you're good. It's fun) or browsing Reddit and don't really have any sort of way to produce content in any format. I don't know how to describe it but I'm just lost on the internet.
I really want to get into YouTube because I feel like it's where I could do pretty well (Sure, I'm young, but I got into the internet so long ago and have been on it so much that age really is irrelevant here. I didn't just join Facebook and mess around for 7 years, I dug deeper from the start) I enjoy all videos from a very select few gaming videos (TotalBiscuit + 2 others who I won't name, they're pretty small) to random News Anchor compilation fails) I'd have fun producing any videos at this point, but I don't see there to be any audience for videos other than those with commentary. I want to do YouTube, but blogging is where I started and where I'm limited to due to just not wanting to speak - or more so I don't want anybody hearing me randomly speaking in my room.
Sorry, ramble ramble ramble. I just needed to vent. I haven't cleaned my post up to make much sense so if you've got this far, I'm sorry, you're probably lost.
I don't know what to do. I'm super super lost on the internet, I need to stop spending my days browsing Reddit and do something constructive, which is what I'm thinking about more and more now that the "Holidays" have started and education is finished.
Are there any popular YouTube channels that don't require commentary/talking? I would ask if anyone has ever been in a similar situation but this is really weird.
Any booming topics for blogs? Like, I don't even know nowadays.
Recently, I've thought about "Top 5" lists of top 5 weapons from games, top five maps from FPS games, top 5 missions, top 5 news anchor fails etc - using http://www.ivona.com/ text to speech. No way though, I have more respect for video quality than that.
TL;DR: Previously ran websites since the moment I first went on the internet, all those sites are closed since the topic was very specific and it died out. I don't know what do now, I have no hobbies to blog about (games don't really... well, blogs and games don't mix) and while I have YouTube friends, I'm way too uncomfortable in front of a microphone. I don't know what to do, I'm lost.
Edit 2: I've looked for Teamspeak servers to get used to talking to a microphone, there aren't any. There are no communities that I can find.
To sum it up, by the way, I've never been on the internet while not working towards a goal before. I've never had nothing to do here before.
Submitted December 20, 2014 at 06:31PM by passispass http://ift.tt/1sKJhgg
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